Wednesday, October 29, 2008

time away from the family



On of the hardest things that i have ever had to do was go out of town to work and leave my family at home. i have never been away from my family for more than a couple of days when they went to meet family and i was stuck working while they were out of town. Now my new job is calling for me to go out of town for a couple days a week to the week part of a week very often. i looked at it like a break at first couple of time, a break is good from time to time "getting some time to yourself" isn't a bad thing. i have now got to the point that its getting harder to be away from my family.is not like my family cant get threw the week or days with out me. my wife and kids can take care of themselves and each other just fine. its not like i am helpless without them. but the miss me and i miss them very much. i have realized that the time at home hasn't been as well spent in the past as it should be, and the time at home now seems like I'm packing in all the time i can with them, so as i trying to make up the time with them.


i have moved three times in the last year. we started in Florida, and were i had a good job i worded a lot of hours. some of the other reason were. got tired of the cost of living, the crowds, moved away from family, moved nearer family. we move to alamaba and my new job was okay at first but went really bad fast, i moved on to another job but it was the same i wasn't working as much in Florida but the drive and the cost of the drive wasn't good for me or my family. now we live in Mississippi and the job is really good. the company is good and they really treat me well, they i know that i really don't like working out of town but it needs to be done from time to time.


i am doing everything that i can to get the job done as early as i can. i trying to keep in touch with my family as much as i can via email, messaging and video chatting but it just doesn't seem to be enough for us missing each other. my wife takes it with a smile but i know that she isn't happy with me going out of town. my boys enjoy being able to talk to me and play games with me but get upset from time to time about me having to go away. i do everything that i can to get them to understand but sometimes it doesn't help.


we are trying different thing to do and try to see if it helps us all out, its not really an option to look for another job because in this case i will just looking to move to find the job. don't want to uproot my family again to find something that is better. i wish i could find something or some way to make things easier and better for me and my family. i wish there was something that would help us make it threw these times better for all of us not just me or my wife or my kids as though right now it seems like this will go on forever i know that it will change and i will be back to working in town in a couple of months